Which University??

Once I got the IB result, I felt very joyful... Allah has granted my wish that is to pass the exam with flying colors. So, the next step is to mull over my university option. I put UBC as the first choice because one of the reasons is to travel in the beautiful Vancouver which I believe all people would like to enjoy their vacation there. No one can deny the panoramic view at the place.

What is my second choice? Absolutely, the university of Alberta. I don't really know why I've chosen this University. Perhaps...yup... I got Bijan over there, my old friend who is really helpful, cheerful and affable person. Furthermore, I am attracted to one of the accommodation provided that is the International House.. Not all Students can live in the house..Only the selected lucky one would be chosen to be there for 8 months..For I wanted to get a place there, I strived to finish two interesting essays about why I am eligible to stay in International House..The funny thing was I included about traditional games such as batu seremban, galah panjang, congkak , teng teng and tuju selipar. I promised to teach them to all the occupants and I added that I was impatient to cook Malaysian food once I got in..though I know that I am that good at cooking.

Alhamdulillah, I have been offered to live in the internatinal House at U of Alberta for 8 months starting from Fall term through winter term. I had told my parents and they were satisfied with my choice. For them, it is already fine as I have got a place there. Thus, this has reduced their worriness as Canada is a cold and far away from Malaysia. Besides, they have become more confident to let me go for Bijan is sudying at the Uni; they know Bijan and his family since I was in MRSM PDRM ,my secondary school.

As I was enthusiastic to know to which Uni Pet would send me, I called one of the officers at The EDU department. He told me that I must go to U of Alberta as this was the only Uni offer I got in the option. I had not been offered to pursue my studies in Vancouver-but it does not mean that I cannot visit the place. Perhaps, I' not cut out for it. Never mind. I have already forgotten about that. Get back to the story, I tried to ask the officer to place me at the U of Arizona as I have admitted there. Somehow, he asked me where I wanted to study.. Indeed, I was not sure. He later explained that The U of Alberta would be my choice for that time. Actually, I felt like flying to Arizona as well. I love Alberta but at the same time I care for Arizona.


So, I accepted the fact that I will fly to Canada. I started to tell my parents, relatives, friends and other people that I will study Geology in Canada. I imagined how my life would be in Canada-playing with the snow, taking pictures of the mountain rocky, teaching other people about Malay traditional games and admittedly traveling along with Bijan and my other friends throughout Edmonton Canada...

I had planned to apply for visa together with maryam and Lingges.. I was ready to commence my new international student's life in Canada...until one day, I received a call from Mr. zafril as I just went off the Maybank building, Balakong branch after I had made a bank draft to be given to canadian embassy. I was told that I would be sent to Arizona..My heart broke.. My dreams disappeared.. Everything seemed dim and dark around me... I was extremely shocked upon hearing this heartbreaking news.. At that moment, my father and I were in an eletrical shop, right in front of the Maybank, to fix his shaver.

As I had fallen in love with Canada, I gave him plenty of reasons why I must choose Canada.
" I have a friend there, who has promised to take me at the airport and acquaint me with the new environment. Furthermore, I have a permanent accomodation there and I have paid 500 canadian dollars to reserve a place. " He replied," we're just worried about you. Perhaps you cannot bear with the coldness and this might affect your health and study." What he said, made sense to me. Can I survive there? Can I bear the -30 degree celsius temperature during winter?
Khaliza and Ridzwan were also listed to fly to Arizona. To make the story short, I asked him to give me some time to mull over this matter.

Starting from the moment, my life had been so confusing. Both uni have lots of advantages and disadvantages. In order to ease this tension, I perfomed Solat Istikharah to ask help from The Benificent. Thank Allah, my mind became less tense and I could feel the equanimity and peace.
But still, I had no idea about my future university. I have asked many people about Canada and USA. As I expected, they got different answers and reasonings. Some say that canadanian culture is better than Arizona; some say that I will be more enjoyful to live in USA, and even some say people in USA are rough. Hence, What Uni is the best for me? The answer is in my hand. I myself must think in the long run because I will be staying there for 4 years not other people.

Lastly, I decided to leave it to Allah The most gracious. After some time, I started to think that Arizona is a better place for me. It is situated in a desert, it has hot and dry climate and it is ranked as one of the top Universities for geology. I am used to hot climate as I live in Malaysia even though the air in the desert is dry, not humid. I told my mum about my anxiety if I lived in Canada and Arizona. According to her, health is more vital. Most probably, my health may be affected by the cold weather in Canada and this may affect my studies. In Arizona, perhaps I will still be able to bear the hot weather albeit I have to use lip balm, apply lotion on my body, and buy sunblock to avoid sun burn.

After considering all the factors, I phoned Mr.Zafril in front of my family to seek help from him. I asked him about the education at both Universities-which one is the best for me. He was silent for a while. Later, he advised me to write an email to mr. rasyidi to register my name at the uni of Arizona. Finally, my university choice has been determined that is university Of Arizona. At first, I was startled as I hoped that I would not get a place there for I wanted to study in Canada as there are four seasons there. However, I had to accept this fate. My mum knew that Arizona was not my uppermost choice in my university list but she convinced me that I would be easily adapt to its weather as it is not as cold as Canada.

Alhamdulillah, I am already in Tuscon Arizona right now, living at Sahara Apartments with other malaysian students-Khaliza, Ridzwan, Wani, Winnie and Andrew. I wish that everything would be fine and I would be able to finish my four-year studies here at the university.

Aliff and Wildcat , the University's mascot

Old main Building at University of Arizona

My IB result

Alhamdulillah, finally I know where I am going to study after this which is at University of Arizona.
I was really excited when I passed the IB exams with flying colors. Though my point is not that high if compared to my friends, at least I passed the Petronas Cut off point.

I should be thankful and grateful because there are many other scholars who did not pass 35 point. I feel sorry for them. I don't know what I would do if I were in their position. Whatever happens, we have to carry on our life as usual. Furthermore, we are still young and have lots of time to fix anything that we are not satisfied with. This is only my opinion. If other people do not agree with it, it is alright; everyone has freedom to opine what they think is right but it must be bound by the rules and regulations and the uppermost is by Islamic laws.

My body shook and my feelings were mixed on the day my result came out. At first, I logged on the IB Results website to check the exact time to see the results. The time was 9 p.m. sharp. However, it appeared that the result time would be released at 1.20 a.m for Malaysia time. My mother insisted to see the result with me but I refused to let her know it for I was nervous and not confident with myself.... I suppose I was really restless that night; I could not even close my eyes though my bed was tender and soft for me to relax on.

Several minutes before 1.20 a.m, I went to my parents 's room to switch on my computer and indeed to get my results. Thank God, the rest of my family had fallen asleep except my third younger brother. I emboldened myself and told myself to accept the result even if i did not pass the cut off point. Slowly but in full of zealous, I key in the username and password and subsequently logged in. Abruptly I pulled down the laptop screen before I could see my result.. I did this as I was really scared, frightened, insecure and flustered... Only Allah Almighty knows how nervous I was at that moment.

Trying to summon my spirit, gently I pulled the screen up and continued looking at my result.
My Malay A1 teacher was right; I attained 7 points for the subject. Immediately, I scrolled down the online transcript to have a look at my overall point. Alhamdulillah, I passed the cut off point. everything has paid off.. Excitedly, I woke my mum and told her about it.. She hugged me tightly. I was really touched. Later, I showed her my result and I called my younger brother to see it as well. My mum congratulated me and I knew she was grateful and joyful with my unexpected result.

Right after that, I signed in YM and joined a conference invitation from my friends who were still awake. Obviously, they were satisfied and truly contented with their IB results. Nonetheless, not all of my classmates passed 35 point. I pity them. Alhamdulillah, they could accept the fate. I hope the best for all of my IB friends. Allah's blessings and bounties are everywhere. Do pray and strive for what we want, insya Allah He will reward us.


Here, I would like to thank all my parents, teachers and friends who continuously give me support and useful advice. Without your help, I don't know whether I could achieve this triumph. Muchas gracias todos!!

Dear diary,

Even though my parents asked me to go to the mines shopping center, which is located in Serdang, for having fun and ‘peace’, i refused to go there. Actually, I have my own reasons why I was reluctant to hang out with them. Today, I was quite happy as I have almost finished my university applications – UBC and the University of Minnesota win cities. I could say that I nearly became insane and lunatic as I had to translate all the documents such as certificates and testimonial to English. At the same time, I feel grateful because this situation has trained me to become a translator-my second ambition in my life.

Translating a document is not an easy thing to do. Sometimes, when we translate word by word, the sentence would not make sense. However, sometimes, it does work. I realized that I need to read more English and Malay news so that my vocabulary in both languages would increase. Today I got up very late in the morning – 11 p.m. Lately, I went to sleep quite late at night. I don’t know why it happened to me. As the school reopens this coming Monday, I have to correct my sleeping time so I could wake up early to school and sleep before midnight. I think that getting rest and enough sleep is vital in my life as an IB student; I would feel fresh, vigorous and energetic to do all my works.
Thank God because I have taken supplement which is fish oil capsule. It contains vitamin A, E and D. What do I feel after taking this capsule? Hmmm.. I still need to wait for the result.

I am afraid to get back to school because I have not finished homework that my teachers gave me last year. Huhuhu.. What to do now? No turning back. Whatever happens, I am compulsory to get it done because I don’t want my teachers to be upset with me soon. I have heard one saying ‘burning midnight oil’. Perhaps, it is time for me to practice as what mentioned in the saying. I wish I could get 35 points in mock exam which is around the corner. Practice makes perfect. I still remember, last time, one of my friends used to say this “Bukan senang nak senang, bukan susah nak susah”, and I agree with her. Imagination is one of the ways to encourage yourself to be more motivated. I have always imagined that I am in my future university and there are lots of other students who are around me studying and talking to each other. Then, I would be full-spirited and full of zeal to continue doing my homework and revising the subjects that I take in IB.

I have got to go because I feel very sleepy now. I wish I can have a better life from day to day. Insya-ALLAH.

Dear diary,

I think i feel quite lugubrious today because many things have happened to me. I don't know why i should feel unhappy about these occurrences. However, i realized that i have committed lots of misdeeds. As a weak human, i cannot deny that i have my weaknesses and shortcomings. Never mind, i ll assume all this matter as motivations for me in facing this life. Indeed, life is full of obstacles and hurdles which can make someone fall down and hurt in his or her life.

What should i do if someone who i really resent, is very close to my parents? what can i say if someone rebukes me over my weakness? should i backfire or ignore it? Many questions have occurred to my mind and i don't know how to answer all the questions. Thank God because i have answered some of them but still i cannot find out all the answers. Is it because i did not ask other people on how to answer the questions ? or because i lacked reading books? These questions also remain unanswered.

Maybe i feel depressed as i have to do lots of works such as writing university essays, revising all the subjects, and also completing my homework. Last time, my teacher had told me to make a list of jobs that we wanted to do so we would not be depressed so much. Ok, later i ll do what my teacher has told me and i wish i could reduce this depression. As the eldest brother and the first son in my family, i need to be a role model and at the same time i need to show a good example to my siblings. i pledge to myself that i want to do my best in this life in whatever situation i face. yup, Si se puede!

I am impressed with Tun Mahathir Mohammed. Even though he has resigned as the Malaysian prime minister, he is still active and prolific. Just now, i read Utusan Malaysia and there was one section about Tun Mahathir. According to the news, he has invoked teenagers to get involved in blogging because it could help to sharpen the writing skill. He also mentioned that bloggers are free to write whatever they want but they must still abide to the rules so our country will remain peaceful without any uproar. i will keep writing my blog as long as i could so i can sharpen my writing skill too and at the same time, i can improve my language skill.

Last night, i spent my time surfing internet and reading the current news. i was taken aback when i read the title of the news "Hijab barred in American courts". To me, this is really inappropriate and unjust to Muslim women who choose to don veils in their daily activities. Hijab is not an oppression; it is a dressing code in Islam and not a religion symbol displaying one's affiliation. Hijab ban has only sparked anger in Islam World as it obviously violates the teachings of Islam. i totally disagree with this ban because it disdains Islam and denies human rights.

Replanting trees in the forest

I woke up late today at about 8.oo a.m. i was quite bit angry to myself because i was supposed to get up early this morning- this is my principal... then, immediately, i went to bathroom and bathed though i was tired- i slept late last night because i did my math internal assesment. i was suprised as i went out from the bathroom, i saw izudin get up from his bed.. usually he is still sleeping at this time.. i wonder why. later, i took ablution and performed dawn prayer and took breakfast. i only ate biscuits and drank a cup of coffeee.. never mind.. at least i had something to eat rather than nothing. i asked myself why arif also woke up early this morning.. quite strange...i looked they were like rushing and murmuring something that i could not hear.. i did not really bother because i had planned to do my homework. i hoped i could finish up all my tareas so that they wouldn't be burdensome to me.

Before they were leaving for somewhere, arep told me that he wanted to go to Bandar Sunway.. i could see that he was wearing socks at that time.. many questions had arised in my mind and i just assumed that they wanted to jog and have breakfast over there. when i was about to read bbc news, my tummy went 'crazy'. abruptly, i took the towel and entered the toilet.hmmm i felt relieved after that... somehow, right after i went out from the loo, my mobile phone rang.. hmm.. weird.. i answered the call and from the voice, i already that the person was arif.. he asked me to go to the field which was located near to bandar Sunway.. i doubted.. further on, i asked him for what purpose i should go there.. he said that we were going to replant trees and join some other interesting activities.. he urged me to go there quickly..

I put on my cap and shoes before leaving.. i walked as fast as i could. on the way to the place, izudin phoned me. he told me to register at a booth which was located near to the public toilet.
however, i could not imagine the place as i seldom went to bandar Sunway. From afar, i could see many peoople wearing green shirts and hanging bags at their arms.. they were also holding two or three trees at the same time. i supposed i was late..i summoned up the courage to find the booth and finally i found it. i asked the volunteer whether i could participate in the program.. he said,' yes u can'. Thank Allah the all Mighty.. i still got the chance to join the program. the volunteer gave me a bag, a green t-shirt aand a pen. i requested to plant trees at that place, but he said that i was a bit late to join the activity.. trying to cheer me up, he suggested to take part in other activities. i just said yes to him.. i was not satisfied actually. i called izudin and asked where he was.

He told that he and arif were in group 14 and they were planting trees in the forest. then, i asked a volunteer where was group 14 and he showed me the way to get there. along my way, i saw many people were busy planting trees. wow... So, hardworking and attentive.. at last, i found izu and arep.. Thank God. i told them i didn't get gloves to plant the tree. they explained what we must do and how to plant the tree. Actually, someone had already dug holes and marked the holes with long sticks. so, it would be easier to all volunteers to plant trees at the area. izu, then, gave his gloves to me so that i could try this activity. i was touched because he gave me the chance to plant the tree.

I was exuberant to see arep, izu and me working together as one group. we helped each other in this program. we alternately dug out the hole, put the tree insside it and covered the soil . if i am not mistaken, i managed to plant about 10 trees or more than that. some photographers took our pictures while we were doing this activity. i felt gratified though i was tired. afterwards, we went back to the main booth and came across azam, nurhayati and aileen. i never thought to see them there. we greeted each other and talked about how many plant they had planted.

There was a booth where all of us put our thumprints on a drawing. the drawing showed many trees without even a leaf. Our job was to stamp our thumbprints on the trees. this activity was really exciting. Then, we went to the food booth and ate sandwiches and fruits. i supposed they served scrumptous foods.. To have more fun and at same time try to complete my our CAS hour, we participated in eco-hunt. It was a treasure hunt and we had to figure out the types of trees, arrange a sequence of pictures, distiguish biodegradable and non biodegradable stuffs and make words from the alphabet given.

Izu and i managed to list 5 words related to enviroment for a short period. The words were biomass, bee, ants, tree and hmmm.... i forgot the last word.. then, after completing the task given for the eco hunt game, we returned the question papers to check our answers.. i thought we would win in this game. while waiting for the results to be announced, we took lunch together and drank orange juice. i also saw Zainal Abidin, one of my favourite artists, singing on the stage at the main booth.. he asked all people to sing together with him.. his performance was fantastic and exhilarating. one of the best parts in his perfomance was when he asked all the people to sing ' di bumi ini' using his tones. It was as if i attended vocal class at that time. frankly, i could not follow his tones and it was quite difficult for me to make the tones. Nevertheless, i really enjoyed his performance.

Later, we went to the eco hunt booth to know who would be the winner. after the person in charge explaining the answers, she announced the winner, first runner up and second runner up for this game. unfortunately, we lost in the game but we were still happy with the results. finally, we went back home to D shire. i wish i can participate other interesting and enjoying programs next time.

mi vida hoy

hmmmm... i am quite relieved today as i have revised some of sat questions.. today my opah, mak long's family, ucu, and cik zizul came to my house for break fast ( buka puasa). after eating, i went to my room to do solat maghrib and i did some of maths questions.. to me it is ok to study even though i have for a minute becoz i believe that time is crucial in human's life.

i also managed to memorize some new word like inconggrible, inherent, inane, inate, and insipid.
besides, i read two spanish articles in order to improve my spanish. thanks God. however, i still have many jobs to do such as english commentary, iop, ee, and physics question. i always pray to Allah that i manage to settle all my homework one day. Allah said in the holy Quran... so verily, every difficulty, there is relief. so, i must work hard and strive for my ambition to be an awesome geologist.. insya Allah.

asimismo, yo recibe' a good lesson today after watching cerekerama at tv3. the movie tells about an ungrateful, rude, and pretentious son, who dies in terrible condition as his parents dont forgive his faults. at first, he is really a good, benevolent, altruistic child to his family. however, he becomes a forgetful person after he meets a beautiful, rich lady. he feels shy to have a poor family. he even does not invite his parents to his wedding because he assumes that their parents are the poors and cannot live with the richs.. in my opinion, this movie is harrowing and suitable for any viewers especially to those who are disrespectful to their parents.. i really hope i can be an altruistic, simpatico, benevolent and respectful person to everybody in this world. hence, we as humans must venerate and treat our parents very well as they have already looked after us since we were born to this world. one more message ( to myself and others) ...
dont be bellicose because i think it can bring many problems to us.. ok that's all for today.

alhamdullilah, thank Allah for everything. today, i woke up early in the morning - it was around 5.00 o'clock... huhuhu... i felt somnolent.. entonces, yo comi el pan que aref me ayudo' a comprarlo. ezriq also woke up to take sahur.. of course sahur is important. Rasulullah said that there is blessing in Sahur.. so i will grab this chance to get the blessings eventhough i feel extremely tired. i ate roti john for sahur, it was spicy but i managed to finish it. Gracias Dios! After that, i drank a lot of water in order to dispel or lessen the spiciness at my throat. actually i did not want to take hot and spicy foods as it can affect my voice as well as my tummy. why i said so? bcoz i need to take care of my voice for theatre art performance... fufufu... i am going to perform in nov. i am acting for waiting for Godot with eugene.

To me, acting is quite though and unic as we need passionate and patience in carrying the character. i donno about other people but that is my opinion. i found that it is hard to me to memorize my lines in waiting for godot and the good son. u know y? frankly speaking, i always stammer when acting my chracter and sometimes i feel like something has constrained my voice from going out from my voice box. hence, i lose confident and hope that theratre art class will end early for that day. hehehehe. however, i'll try my best for the perfomance as we have been practising since last year. i wish i can memorise my lines before this coming thrusday. insya Allah!

i went to school with a van at & o'clock. i prayed in my heart ,' i hope there will be no assembly today'. as i arrived at school, i heard an annoucement saying that the assembly would be held at 8 a.m. ahh.... it really spoilt my plan to my ee... knowing that the assembly would take about one hour, then i decided to bring along sat vocabulary listsand hoped that my time could be filled with beneficial activity...

i was quite joyful, happy and feliz today because i managed to revise some SAT questions. at the same time, i memorized several new words like parsimony, affable, affluent, revorted, and etc.
i went back early today with Azmani. then, i took nap and i woke up at 6 p.m. subsequently, i did solat Asar and went to bazar together with Arif and Azmani.. sometimes, i wonder what is relationship between ... and ... because for what i have seen, they look like a blissful couple as the A is always helping the B and the b is always joking with the A... it still remains a question to me.. i believe that someday i will get the answer.

i also went to surau to perform solat tarawih and to listen to religion talk. i startled for a while when i saw the speaker who already gave his speech last year during the fasting month.. his last speech was really remarkable, articulate and quite funny though it was a bit... to me. today. he reminded as to always go to to surau or mosques as we do in Ramadan. Moreover, he advised all the brothers and sisters in Islam to attend majlis2 ilmu especially if they are about religion. he said that religion is really and extremely important in our life. we are bound to God's law and we must try our best to follow and obey His commands.

ok... that's all for today. i wish that i can write my diary tomorrow. que Allah me bendiga!